How high is up?

Lately I've been thinking... and i don't do that too often
It's kind of driving me insane, actually.
I hate wondering and that's all thats been taking over me even if I try to answer my own questions. These days more than ever.
To think that how long has passed is how long I'm gonna have to wait...

the words just keep escaping my brain, it's full capacity is taken up by desires, imaginations and hopes. but they fall.


I miss having something to fight for.